More cancer than anyone deserves

We have a PET scan set up for Friday and will see a second oncologist on Monday. We are now talking about Mayo Clinic, as well. I am sure that we will travel for the surgery. It is still up in the air whether the chemo will be here or out of town but, leaning toward home.

Stacia was diagnosed with lung cancer today so, I have 3 cancer patients under our roof. We will probably let Stacia go soon. I want to do so on Thursday. John is now second thinking it. I feel that he is heavily identifying with her and is afraid to let her go thinking that if she dies, he will too.

I have a close friend Pat, that lives in Dallas. When I emailed to tell her about John, she called and asked when I wanted her here. She didn't ask IF only WHEN. Her 27 year old daughter is between jobs and is flying in tomorrow. Pat will be here on Friday and both will stay until Sunday afternoon. They will help me muck through my desk, get things organized that we gathered at the party, help me finish planting flowers and generally help me think and function. I am so grateful that they just said they were coming. I need to get more organized before the treatment starts.

We are taking your advice on getting multiple opinions. I know that we have a hell of a year in front of us but, I feel that John will come through this. I just wish he had more of an appetite. He is disappearing.